Wednesday, September 21, 2011
I have been a little absent from my blog as of late because life has just been crazy lately. My aunt got really sick and had to focus most of my attention there, while trying to keep up with work, photo projects, building my website, and just keep pace with life in general. I cannot believe it is already the end of September..the last month has been a complete blur! I have been making to do lists everyday and majorly prioritizing because with everything on my plate I know it won't all get done.
But with that said, amidst all the chaos I just feel so much lately like things are coming together. The last few years have been such a struggle with my back pain...completely unable to live my life for 2 years due to debilitating pain had me convinced I could never regain a state of normalcy again. Finally, the pain has slowly but surely started to improve (after no explanation of what it was). I now have a part time job, I have been with my amazing boyfriend Brent for 3 years as of yesterday, I am having so much fun learning and growing with my photography, and to top it off, over the weekend I went on a 5 mile hike - something I have not done since before I was diagnosed at age 12! And although I could not walk for a day after, just the fact that I was able to do something like this is so incredible.
Today was a great day. I photographed Brent's nephew who is now 3 months old and tonight I attended and photographed a beer tasting event which helped both 1.raise money and 2.establish a group of passionate young professionals for PCRF - Pediatric Cancer Research Foundation. At one point, I spoke to a mom whose 6 year old daughter is winning her battle against Leukemia. As I shared my story with her and watched her face light up with encouragement when I spoke about how far I have come, it just further cemented what I already know: I absolutely must in some form or another use my story to inspire and encourage current patients and their families.
Despite my years of doubting it was possible, I feel like I finally have my life and my self back. I have goals again. I have dreams, and I have hope for the future. I want to help people, I want to share the beauty of the world through my photography, and I want to somehow intersect the two.
Honestly, it is hard at times not to worry about the future...long term affects of the cancer, how my pain will affect me, etc. But I remind myself every day how life is such a gift and really do my best to focus on enjoying the moment rather than be concerned about what may or may not happen. And as more and more pieces of my life's puzzle seem to fit together, I feel more encouraged and just... indescribably happy to be alive.
Friday, September 16, 2011
Thursday, September 15, 2011
Wednesday, September 14, 2011
Tuesday, September 13, 2011
Monday, September 12, 2011
Sunday, September 11, 2011
I think there is something about sharing what we remember from that day - a tribute of sorts. By recalling our reaction, where we were, and how we felt on that day. This morning I was sitting with my two aunts on the couch watching the memorial they did on TV, watching the names being read of all those who lost their lives on that day. We were all so emotional as we were again reminded of the gravity of that day and how some had their lives deeply changed forever.
I will never forget it. It was only a year and a half after I was diagnosed but I had already undergone all my treatment, I was attending my first year of high school, and I was in a wheelchair at that point.
5:00 AM - woke up with the worst headache I have ever had. Ever. Felt like my head was going to split in two and I still remember the feeling.
5:05 AM - got out of bed, and my dad was already awake. So we turned on the news I popped some advil and sprawled on the couch, completely unaware of what we were about to see.
5:46 AM - the first plane crashed into the World Trade Center
6:00 AM - call from my mom, she was on vacation visiting my grandparents in New York, her first ever trip to New York!! We received a call from her shortly after that she was fine and a good distance from the site.
I have only had one migraine in my life. 10 years ago to the day. The pain was so bad I was unable to formulate words and I stayed home as we all watched the TV in awe.
What do you remember from that day? Sending love to all the hurt & loss produced from this devastation. ♥
Day 19: When Order is in Order
I find repeating patterns and shapes very calming.
When surrounded by chaos, such a visual reminder can provide that sense of order you need.
Day 20: Spacey
Day 21: Girl Put Your Records On
Rise up this mornin',
Smile with the risin' sun,
Three little birds
Pitch by my doorstep
Singin' sweet songs
Of melodies pure and true,
Sayin', "This is my message to you-ou-ou:"
Singin' "Don't worry, about a thing, worry about a thing, oh!
Every little thing, gonna be alright. Don't worry!"
Singin': "Don't worry about a thing" - I won't worry!
"Cause every little thing gonna be alright."
Mickey escaped in the grocery store
After the storm
Tibetan Prayer Flags
Fall is just around the corner...
Don't worry, be happy!
Night time drive
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I hope everyone is having a wonderful weekend!
Thursday, September 8, 2011
Day 17: Visual InterestWe have had really tropical weather lately, so different from the normal end of summer weather. We spent a nice weekend at my mom's house and while we were sitting out at the pool in the warm sun and blue skies, a dark cloud rolled in, poured rain for 10 minutes then rolled away revealing blue skies again. It was so weird! We were all in our bathing suits, huddle under the little cabana like little kids in awe of the rain.
Day 18: Playtime
I have a wonderful memory of flying a kite with my dad not long after I was sick. I was so bored of being cooped up in the house, and he had the idea of going to the kite store in town, picking out a kite and going to the beach. We finally chose one, can't really remember the shape but thinking a butterfly? We walked down the street and had such a fun time laughing & playing at the beach. This kite was down at the Santa Monica pier and for some reason it made me think of that day with my dad.
Tuesday, September 6, 2011
Monday, September 5, 2011
Sunday, September 4, 2011
Saturday, September 3, 2011
The simple pleasures I enjoyed today:
•Playing with their new kitten Lexie
•Cooking with my mom
•Laughing hysterically for the hundredth time at the Flight of Concords "Business Time" video
•Chocolate cherry cake for dessert
•The sound of crickets
•83 degrees in the pool
•Getting teeny tiny kitten kisses
I hope your weekend is off to a great start. What simple pleasures are you enjoying?
Friday, September 2, 2011
Thursday, September 1, 2011
It's hot outside! Cool down with a popsicle. My feet hurt from all this walking! Get a pedicure. I'm thirsty! Make a refreshing iced tea. We have too much fruit! Bake a pie. I'm stressed! Sit in the sun. I'm bored! Kick up your heels and read a book. I'm hungry! Snack on some juicy watermelon. Oh the possibilities are endless. Treat yourself to a little summertime joy today while it is still here.